I participated in the Reverb blog challenge years ago, when it was ran by someone else. I just found it again today ( a little late, but I am still awake on what was the first just a few minutes ago, so this totally counts, it totally does!) and I am going to try to participate all month long. Hopefully the posts will help you fine readers get to know me a little better.
Here’s the gist of the challenge if you are interested:
Reverb is a reflective writing challenge held in December every year. It provides a sacred space for participants to celebrate the successes and honour the challenges of the year that’s passing, as well as plant the seeds for a rich and rewarding new year.
Reverb was started by Gwen Bell in 2009 as a writing challenge for bloggers to consider the reverberations they sent out into the universe. Gwen passed the challenge on to individuals to host in 2011 and a number of bloggers around the world have since taken up the baton. This makes for a pretty exciting and festive time, and it’s not unusual for bloggers to participate in multiple Reverbs at once!
I am going to follow the prompts and join the linkup over at Kat McNally’s blog – and the prompt for the first day of December is:
How do you feel, on this first day, in your mind? In your body? In your heart? In your soul?
I feel quiet. I feel dampened down. That’s how I actually described the way I feel to my friend Jill today – I feel like someone turned the volume down on my entire life.
I’m on medication for depression and anxiety and I think the meds, which were altered a bit recently, are messing with me. I feel not myself – scared to be in crowds, less likely to pick up the phone or leave the house – less likely to seek out a good time when one might be had.
Really, I feel the way I do every December first: filled with dread about the winter to come. Worried about bills (specifically the gas heating bill), worried about Christmas and the gifts I can’t afford to get anyone, worried that the cold will bring me too far down, and knock me out.
What I feel is not so great lately, in mind, body, and soul.
What I am, though, is looking forward to the new year ahead, looking forward to changes that may come in my life, looking forward to doing something this year that I’ve never done before – something that will be amazing and life changing.
I suppose no matter how I feel now, as long as I am looking forward and looking up, things will be alright.
How are YOU feeling today?